A moment in time.

At this very moment I am experiencing true confusion and a sort of ambivalence. It's Friday, I ain't got no job, but I know I got shit to do! But I can't help but feel as though I need to be still. I actually wouldn't mine going to church at this very moment, going "home" and figuring out what it is I need to sacrifice because right now, in this moment, I am living for my own pleasures. Maybe I should read the "Book of Life" to stay ahead of this nursing game, or maybe I should go to the gym so that I can be acceptable in the eyes of others, maybe I should just go home and sleep. Sleep away these privledged hours that God blessed me with to love and experience moments in life. My ambivalence has turned to frustration. So again I ask, what am i supposed to be doing at this moment in my life? Maybe this is it.